It's pretty sad when you figure out something about yourself, and people get angry at you for it. I've been especially unhappy lately, depressed really. Everyone who knows me knows why. And yet when i think i find a possible solution to the problem and try to explain it to the people i feel would most need to know in this situation, they get mad at me. They get so angry at me because i don't feel like myself at all and i wanna try something to change that, but they don't like my plan. I'm never one to burn bridges. Everyone who would read this journal should know that. I HATE cutting ties with people. i never do it. ever. Life is too short to spend it avoiding people you've screwed over. I prefer to heal and make friends. The only thing i ever do is cordon off the bridge and don't cross it for awhile, Until i feel like i'm safe to cross it again. Because if i try to cross a bridge when i'm like this, when i'm depressed and angry and frustrated and insane and anxiety ridden, i'll either jump off the bridge or it will collapse on me. i know probably no on will read this, but its nice to see it in the physical world.

*kels